Yeah that really is a tough call isn't it. I don't envy your decision either way. I know I find it hard to go to a convention and not attempt to work at it. All I know for sure is that it would be great to see you next year but that I would understand if you couldn't make it (so would any other adult at the convention). At the end of the day you need to make the decision thats right for you, in this case you have some time to think about it which is good.