I understand what you're saying, and I do have reasons for not wanting to go on insulin just yet. I want to give the diet and exercise scheme another shot once I'm in my own place again and not distracted/stressed by trying to do staff work on multiple conventions, among other things. Perhaps more to the point, I think I need to have a serious discussion with my doctor about the relative merits of keeping a decaying mind in a relatively sound body versus dying around the age of 70 due to heart failure.